"You have called me higher, you have called me deeper, and I will go where you will lead me Lord.
I will be yours for all my life."
-allsons&daughters
Have you ever sought for answers but felt so fuzzy that you couldn't even get your brain working enough to begin? I have.
I doubt that sentence even made sense. I'm not really sure what I mean when I speak, but I know what I feel when the words come out. My heart knows what I mean better than my brain does, and I spend so much time each day pounding on its doors and asking if it will please open up and give me what I'm searching for. Hopefully as time goes on my mind and my heart will become friends and make pretty conversation with the rest of me. Hopefully.
But back to being fuzzy inside my head... I sit here, trying to think through things and make up my mind or at least make sense of how my soul is moving, but it appears as though my ability to think has escaped me altogether. As soon as my thoughts seem to be going down a sensible road, they just stop and trail off without giving me any hint of progress!
How unfair.
So I'm brought back to what I'm always brought back to... faith and trust. I have faith that there are answers to all my questions, and I trust that God will reveal them fully to me soon. It's the waiting that gets me, but I know that if I wait patiently, and ask persistently, my seeking will not be empty. Will you seek alongside me?
As I wrote in my first post, I know that when God answers me it will be like a tidal wave crashing over me and sweeping me along without any work on my part. But how long will it be Lord? I long for Your waves to crash over me and sweep me away.
I'm ready for you, fuzzy and all.
I doubt that sentence even made sense. I'm not really sure what I mean when I speak, but I know what I feel when the words come out. My heart knows what I mean better than my brain does, and I spend so much time each day pounding on its doors and asking if it will please open up and give me what I'm searching for. Hopefully as time goes on my mind and my heart will become friends and make pretty conversation with the rest of me. Hopefully.
But back to being fuzzy inside my head... I sit here, trying to think through things and make up my mind or at least make sense of how my soul is moving, but it appears as though my ability to think has escaped me altogether. As soon as my thoughts seem to be going down a sensible road, they just stop and trail off without giving me any hint of progress!
How unfair.
So I'm brought back to what I'm always brought back to... faith and trust. I have faith that there are answers to all my questions, and I trust that God will reveal them fully to me soon. It's the waiting that gets me, but I know that if I wait patiently, and ask persistently, my seeking will not be empty. Will you seek alongside me?
As I wrote in my first post, I know that when God answers me it will be like a tidal wave crashing over me and sweeping me along without any work on my part. But how long will it be Lord? I long for Your waves to crash over me and sweep me away.
I'm ready for you, fuzzy and all.
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